Someone almost made my heart stop this week.
When I was lamenting about you having to share the attention and toys once your little sister arrives, this person said, “It’s OK, she’ll never remember a life without a sister.”
Oh, Eggroll. There has been so much to remember already.
There was that first night when you slept on my chest in the hospital and made the same little “puh” noise your daddy makes in his sleep.
There was the first trip to the playground and the joy of your first ride in a swing.
There were a million diapers and trips to the grocery store for something to do.
There was our first special lady date when I took you out to lunch. I don’t think you were even eating much food yet, but you sat in your high chair and I talked to you like you could talk back. You flirted with the waiter and gnawed on a straw. It was great.
There was the afternoon just recently where we fell asleep in a nap holding hands and smiling at each other.
There were so many hugs, so many books, so many tears.
There were those moments I just couldn’t wait for your dad to come home or for you to go to bed and those moments when I stood at the door waiting for you to come home from daycare so we could play.
There was the first time you crawled and the first time you tried yogurt and the first time you counted to two. (Genius!)
There were splashes in the bathtub and in the pool. There was wrestling with the new puppy that always ended in tears, a timeout, and a “Mama, hug please me!”
There was an obsession with your new raincoat and boots and a need for a jewelry box for my fashionable lady.
There were times when we made cookies and others when you caught me eating “nummies!” in the pantry.
There were so many good things.
Eggroll, I know when we were in the thick of it I didn’t truly appreciate this special time together. For that, I am sorry. But I am SO grateful that I have these memories to look back on. You made me a mother. You taught me how to share. You showed me that your father is an even more amazing human than I thought possible.
This next little girl is my gift to you, girlfriend. As the luckiest only child on the face of the planet, the only thing my life is missing is a sibling. I hope this gift proves to be a good one. I hope the two of you love each other and trust each other and enjoy each other’s company.
Meanwhile, I know I’m supposed to wait back here and watch proudly as the two of you grow up together, but I’m jealous, dear girl. I want to be the one making one-on-one memories with my Eggroll.
These next few months are bound to be pretty hairy for our relationship as we both learn how to navigate life with another newborn. That is to say nothing about angst that will come the middle school years.
But Eggroll, it has been my honor to share the last two years of my life with you. I may someday go full-on crazy, but I will never, ever, ever forget what it was like to have that time together.
Eggroll, today I am grateful for you.